Alone

I was talking to one of my family members tonight and she brought up something I may have not ever brought up or talked about. Not honestly and open at least. So here I am to tell how my life is. Really! The most important topic there is to talk about are going to be talked about.


I am all alone raising my child. I am not only a single mother, but I am a single mother of a special needs child. I have day to day struggles just as everyone else does but having a child with special needs and trying to meet those needs all by myself can be difficult. Trust me there are many good points as to being a single mother but it's hard. Almost to hard. Sometimes I feel like I am just going to break. I just want to hide in a dark corner far away from everything and everyone. It's all so overwhelming. I have to work, take Noah to therapy and doctor's appointments (take into account this means his regular doctor, the ENT, his cardiologist, the eye doctor, the neurologist, the dentist, and more), take myself to doctor appointments (since I am the only parent in this family I have to make sure I am healthy and taken care of too), clean the house, take care of the car, work with Noah on OT, ST, PT, as well as teach him regular things. Like I said it's overwhelming. 


Again there are good things about being a single parent such as having the only say in what goes about how to raise the child. This is what I like the most. The second most thing I enjoy is getting to be the main person he depends on. He knows I will always be there and I love him unconditionally. 


Noah's biological father has given up all rights to him and even denies Noah being his child. I have filed to collect child support and have yet to receive a cent in a year. May 16th we finally go to court. I pray this jerk gets what he has coming and learns a lesson.


Updates coming soon. . .going to bed