Just a month

So yea it’s been another month since my last blog. I don’t know what it is but I just seem to kind of forget. I guess that means I have a lot going on right? Well I do.  I just wanted to say that I absolutely LOVE this font, haha. Anyways life has been hectic. It’s been really busy, there has been lots and lots of downward spirals and some upward too but for the most part things are starting to look up. Or at least I hope so.

So I moved to Kansas. . .I was there for about a week and a half. And. . .. .I hate to say it but I am back in Alabama. Well, actually I don’t hate to say it. I missed it. I was depressed. I loved the fact that I could see my family a lot more, which I did. I spent a lot of time with my cousin, Tiffany. I had a lot of fun with her and I absolutely adore her son Braylen. He is such a doll and Noah really liked him too. Lol. There was a lot of family I didn’t get to see though being I was there for only a short time. I had been looking for a nannying job and I was going to start school at the end of August and eventually get my own place. I was looking at prices of everything and it hit me. I was not going to be able to afford to live anywhere by myself without a full time job. And I say a full time job, like seriously. Could you imagine little Noah going to daycare or staying with someone he barely knows or doesn’t know all day every day all of the sudden? They don’t know him and he doesn’t know them and he has been taken away from everything he is use to. No, I wasn’t going to do that. How would they know what he wants? His communication skills aren’t that of a 2 year old but maybe a 7 month old. He can communicate but you have to really know what he is saying and if you haven’t ever been around him you aren’t going to have a clue. His words are not clear, he doesn’t know or understand a lot of what you say. I would have to literally sit down and tell a person everything about him; healthwise and developmentally and still they wouldn’t know. This is what I struggle with putting him anywhere other than with my mom while I work now (I’ll get to that later) and I know he is never going to get use to some place if I don’t try but I haven’t exactly had the best experience with daycares nor do I feel very good about leaving my child with several disabilities with someone who knows nothing about him or how he is. So needless to say, I was taking this into account. My older brother Chris was willing to help but at the moment he couldn’t. I needed family to help me and I didn’t really have that. My family wasn’t exactly in the right position to even try to help me. I was staying with my Aunt Cindy but there were more pity problems than I knew. I didn’t want these things to complicate my stay there and so I packed my things back into my car and left. I came back home.

Then. . .comes the hard part. I thought I would get my job back. To make a long story short, I received a better job. I had to pull a few strings and there are a lot of jealous people but you know what I deserve it. I say this was hard because this took me about 2-3 weeks to do all this. I will spare you the details. Let’s just say my ex supervisor is not as “Christian” as she seems to be. Hmmmph! So now I am back at the hospital working on the cardiac floor as a Patient Care Assistant, it’s basically like a CNA without the certification. So far I love it. There are parts of it that aren’t so pleasant but all in all it’s very rewarding and really teaches me a lot about life.

So anyways, I work full-time now. I go to school full-time. Noah and I, both, live with my mother. Noah is finally getting back into therapy and a routine. And I am looking for a house for little man and I. I am extremely excited. And I pray it’s where God wants me to be. I applied for the second time, different place, for a house today and I pray and pray I get it. That would be a huge weight off my shoulders. I am still single and loving it. I am totally crushing on this guy at work but I think he has a gf. Haha. To bad for me. Oh well. I am loving being able to go out and enjoy the party scene every once in a while. I think I deserve that too, being I work so hard to do for Noah and I. I just need to let loose every once in a while so me and the girls from work go dancing.

Noah is doing great! He is so so soooo close to walking. He is now standing up on his own from the floor and he stays there for approx. 3 seconds and sit back down. He thinks it’s funny and he seems to get really excited he is doing it all by himself. He is really scared to let go of anything. But I think walking is just around the corner. One day he is just going to take off. I just hope I am home to see it! Next goal is potty training. His PT is great with him. And we all love her. The other PT from Early Intervention see’s him once a month, which there isn’t really a point why it’s only once a mth but whatever I am not going to argue since he has PT every week privately. We are in the middle of getting him SMO’s for his feet. He turns in his right foot more than he is suppose to and he always seems to rock back on his heels. We think it’s weakness in his ankles, which is common. The SMO’s will support him a little better and they will eventually strengthen his ankles. He is not getting speech right now and I am really not happy about that. We find out why tomorrow. He is getting OT every other week since he does so well with his fine motor skills. I have begun to brush his teeth once a day to adjust him to the texture and because it’s important since he has a lot of teeth now. He doesn’t really like it at all. I tried different tooth paste but I think it’s just the texture or something idk. We will mention it to the OT. Other than all that Noah is doing great. He is talking a lot. I haven’t really had the chance to teach him new things yet but he will get there. Six more months and he will start preschool. I can’t believe it, oh my gosh!

Anyways it’s getting to be my bed time. 5:30 comes really early for me and I must not be late. I need my beauty rest! Maybe I will blog again soon. Lol.