I had been am looking for a job. In the beginning of my job search I received a phone call from Early Head Start with an opening for Noah. This meant full time daycare. Monday-Friday from 8am to 2:30pm. I took the opening and enrolled Noah. I figured this would be perfect timing. I can help him transition him into full time daycare while I am still unemployed and it will be a smooth ride and easier on both of us. What a perfect time to do it! But oh was I wrong. Turns out Noah didn't transition as well as I thought he would. He cried everyday all day. So we changed it so he would only go 2 hours a day from 8am-10 or 10:30 am.
I feel like things were just so overwhelming for him and with so much chaos within the class it really exhausted him. He is use to being home or with 0-1 other kids around. His classroom had a 2:8 ratio. This is not enough. Especially for a child with special needs. I sat in the classroom and observed multiple times, to see what exactly was going on. I really didn't learn much being that Noah wanted to stay by my side the whole time. Every time one of the teacher's picked him up or tried to do anything with him he would cry or pout. The other kids in his class were all around 2 or 3 years old, none of them had special needs. All of them were walking and talking. This put Noah at a disadvantage. He couldn't communicate and he can't get to things like he usually would because the other kids are walking around and he is afraid to move. He stayed in one spot away from all the kids. Every single time I would go pick up Noah he was crying. Ms. M would ask me questions like Do I hold him a lot? Do I play with him all day or does he play by himself? and she would give me these crazy looks like she really didn't like me. From the looks she gave me and the questions she asked I felt a little offended. Ms. S, was Noah's actual caregiver she would try everything she knew to get him to stop crying but he just never stopped. Ms. M's theory was. . .he will learn that it's ok and to cry it out. This really made me mad. I don't agree to have any child "cry it out"! Unless they are really having a meltdown for no reason. But this isn't Noah. This isn't usual. Noah never cries. So something was wrong. Something is not quite right. I debated so many times to take him completely out of daycare. The director was trying everything she could to help and make things easier for us. Nothing helped.
I feel like Noah was crying because he was exhausted, scared, confused, overwhelmed, overstimulated, and lost. Crying was his only way of communicating and they just wanted to ignore him. So today, was the last straw. I am so sick of going to pick him up and he is crying, he cries himself to sleep. I feel if this was to last to long it might traumatize him and he will just shut down. I have to do what's right or Noah. I loved him being in daycare. I got so many things done, and it was so conveniant. It was also great for social interaction. When I went to pick up Noah today he was asleep but I could tell he had been crying because he was breathing deep. So I asked the teachers what happened and they acted like everything was fine. So I asked again, why was he crying. Ms. M said well he was out yesterday! Noah was absent yesterday, he was sick. He is still sick. Ms. M always seems to have a comment every time Noah misses a day. I explained to her that he is sick and she agreed. It just really made me mad that she has to put her two sense in every time I do or say something about MY son.
So no more daycare for Noah right now, back home with mommy.
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